Friday, May 30, 2008

Who is running things?

Who is writing history? Who is writing text books? Who is composing legal documents? Who is writing our dictionaries?

Well let's just see...

The 2nd definition of colonialism in the Oxford English Dictionary:

2. The colonial system or principle. Now freq. used in the derogatory sense of an alleged policy of exploitation of backward or weak peoples by a large power.

Also, Olives' entry about having exoctic dancer/stripper in the definition disturbed me, but I thought "hey, it's" so I consulted Webster, the all-american dictionary, well lo and behold!

Main Entry:
Latin exoticus, from Greek exōtikos, from exō
1: introduced from another country : not native to the place where found 2archaic : foreign, alien3: strikingly, excitingly, or mysteriously different or unusual 4: of or relating to striptease
— ex·ot·i·cal·ly \-ti-k(ə-)lē\ adverb
— ex·ot·ic·ness \-tik-nəs\ noun

Well I never, of or relating to striptease? Well that is just stated in such an articulate manner, I dare not question it.

Let's continue this journey of the dictionary. What else has webster got for us?

Main Entry:
\ˈhȯr, ˈhu̇r\
Middle English hore, from Old English hōre; akin to Old Norse hōra whore, hōrr adulterer, Latin carus dear — more at charity
before 12th century
1: a woman who engages in sexual acts for money : prostitute; also : a promiscuous or immoral woman2: a male who engages in sexual acts for money3: a venal or unscrupulous person

Oh I seeee, whores are whores because they are immoral. And unscrupulous? Well they define that as unprincipled. Wow, I'm learning so much. It's really good for my conscience to know that whores are immoral and have no principles because now I don't feel bad at all for blaming them for being in their situation and not questioning the societal forces that put them there. Oh but wait, there are no societal forces, they were destined to become whores because they have no morals. Funny there is no common use word for the people that visit whores. Hmm. Also, aparently only the female whores are immoral, that "also" addition seems to be missing from entry 2.

Anyway, moving briskly along.

Main Entry:
Middle English slutte
15th century
1chiefly British : a slovenly woman2 a: a promiscuous woman; especially : prostitute b: a saucy girl : minx
— slut·tish \ˈslə-tish\ adjective
— slut·tish·ly adverb
— slut·tish·ness noun
— slut·ty \ˈslə-tē\ adjective

Wow, nowhere does is call this word unacceptable, insulting, or even derogatory. And did you know webster is "The common type of english language dictionary in the united states."? "The phrase Webster's has become a genericized trademark for dictionaries." Good, so this is in all of our dictionaries.

Let's revisit Oxford shall we. The dictionary of the intellectuals. THE DICTONARY really. I mean, ask any english professor, they worship this thing. But what does the OED have to say about sluts?

1. a. A woman of dirty, slovenly, or untidy habits or appearance; a foul slattern. b. A kitchen-maid; a drudge. rare. c. A troublesome or awkward creature. Obs.1

2. a. A woman of a low or loose character; a bold or impudent girl; a hussy, jade. b. In playful use, or without serious imputation of bad qualities.

3. A female dog; a bitch. Also attrib., as slut-pup. ?orig. U.S.

4. a. A piece of rag dipped in lard or fat and used as a light.

5. Special collocations, as slut's corner, a corner left uncleaned by a sluttish person; also fig.; slut-, slut's-hole, a place or receptacle for rubbish; also fig.; slut's-pennies, hard pieces in a loaf due to imperfect kneading of the dough; slut's wool, the fluff or dust left on the floor, etc., by a sluttish servant or person.

Well that is...thorough. These old English men sure do respect and admire women. I love that in definition 2 when they talk about a woman of "low or loose character" they have that it is playful. Nobody better be using that word "playfully" with me.

I feel like I'm digressing from my original point. After all, I gave you a lot of definitions. And I think my point is obvious: the books defining the words that make up all the books we read and the conversations we have are bringing women down.

But what about that first definition?

The 2nd definition of colonialism in the Oxford English Dictionary says that colonialism is now used in a "derogatory" manner to talk about "an alleged policy of exploitation of a backward or weak peoples by a large power." Damn! So it is colonialism that is a foul, insulting, and derogatory word, not slut or whore. Because you know, colonialism should be used in a positive sense since it is only alleged and the people who were colonized were "backward" and "weak" anyway. Well that's lovely coming from the English who colonized freaking everyone and have killed countless millions with their diseases and weapons and "civilization." Good for the English.


Tuesday, May 27, 2008

are feminists asexual?

Are feminists asexual? Well, under the assumption that only women identify themselves as feminists. Cause men could never be asexual. Men are sexual animals....and that sort of behavior is completely appropriate. right? A feminist, that is a former straight women that has a bitter and intense resentment towards the male race. I mean feminists are the ones that are challenging the society's definition of what it means to be a women. They are the ones that have fully embraced what it means to them personally to be a women, breaking free from how this culture defines who they are supposed to be, what they are supposed to look like, and how they are supposed to feel. (source)

"In a recent survey of more than 4,000 college students across the country, a sociology professor at Stanford University found that women in college orgasm less than half as often as college males during hook-ups." (source)

"There is a social focus of sexual activity on male pleasure. In almost half of oral sex reports, only men received it, and women were the sole receivers 16 percent of the time. Minnie-Bruce Pratt, a women's studies professor, said this inequity is due to the double standard that teaches women to resist expressing their sexuality and for men to enjoy it. "I think that women not being able to ask for what they want in sex, that is, show they have desire, comes from a very embedded notion in this culture that if you're a woman and you like sex, there's something dirty and wrong with you," she said. (Keep in mind this is a bigger societal issue with our culture sending a message to young women that they should not sexually express themselves. This is not about a man and women in a bedroom along, and the men telling the women he'll do anything to please her.) Because of this societal pressure, women may be less likely to explore themselves sexually." (source)

Now back to the original question, are feminists' asexual? Well using common sense and logical rationale, the answer is no. Our society pressures young women to be sexually pure. They are not allowed to have sexual desire and drive with out being placed in a box of negative labels like slut and easy. As I mentioned before, feminists are actively fighting against the bigger societal oppressors that keep the women of this country from fully embracing themselves as a woman. If anything. feminists are often fully aware of the importance of embracing their sexual freedom.

As a woman you DESERVE to COME just as much, if not more, than the man you're sleeping. You won't regret it, trust me.

source Christa Bell
<3 Olives

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Sexual violence in Native American and Alaska Native communities

Native American women. Yeah, we've suffered. I'd say most of the women in my family have survived sexual violence and all the people in my family have been affected by it.

I was supposed to provide some resources demonstrating how sexual violence affects indigenous women in our country for an event that Olives put on a few days ago. Unfortunately, I was unable to speak with anyone or find the kinds of resources I wanted to on this issue in time for the event. Now that I have found some things, I'll share them here.

"Native American and Alaska Native women are more than 2.5 times more likely to be raped or sexually assaulted than other women in the United States in general. More than one in three Native women will be raped in their lifetimes. In at least 86% of reported cases of rape or sexual assault against Native American and Alaska Native women, the perpetrators are non-native men. The US government has created a complex maze of tribal, state, and federal jurisdictions that often allow perpetrators to rape with impunity. Sexual violence against indigenous women is also the result of a history of human rights violations against Indigenus people in the US. Indigenous women were raped by settlers and soldiers as a tool of conquest and colonization. Impunity for perpetrators and indifference toward survivors contribute to a climate where sexual violence is seen as normal and inescapable. Native American and Alaska Native women's organizations and tribal authorities have brought forward proposals to help stop sexual violence against Indigenous women--but the federal government has failed to act. In failing to protect Indigenous women from sexual violence, the US is violating women's human rights."

(Source: Amnesty International USA)

The above text came from a slideshow at that shows Native American and Alaska Native women who have survived sexual violence. It's a really amazing webpage with a lot of information about the issue. You can watch videos made by the advocates, press conferences, and read survivors' stories.

One statistic that many people find surprising is the fact that over 86% of the perpetrators are non-native men. This is probably due to the problems with federal law and sovereignty that prevent tribal police and courts from detaining and prosecuting non-tribal members. That means, crimes committed on the reservation, including rape, by non-native people cannot be prosecuted. How is that for justice?

What also greatly disturbs me about this information is the fact that there seems to be a direct corrolation bewteen the high rate of sexual violence toward Indian women and the fact that nothing is being done to stop it. To me this means our main failure as a society is in not educating people enough around the issues of sexual violence. If the only thing stopping rape and sexual violence is the law, we are not doing enough. If men don't sexually violate women only out of fear of the legal consequences, we are failing. The laws around tribal jurisdiction need to be changed so that Indigenous women get justice. Our education needs to change so that Indigenous women and all women get justice. Women need to be empowered from a young age and educated about the options that face survivors. Women and men also need to be educated about the history of sexual violence, why it is unacceptable, why we all need to be advocates for ending this violence, and what we can do to stop it. What a revolution it would be to include this in our K-12 sex-ed programs!

That message aside, Indigenous women are still suffering sexual assualt in horrifying numbers. And I don't think that jurisdiction is the only problem. When women do survive sexual assault and can't get any justice in court, they have nowhere to turn. There are frighteningly few resources for survivors on reservations or in Urban Indian communities. I read about a place in Alaska where there is only one safe house for 500 miles in an area where not only is more than one house needed, but women do not have even the means to get to this safe house. One more quote from "The Indian Health Service (IHS) is the principle and in some areas, sole provider of health services for these women. However, despite its prevalence, IHS continues to lack consistent protocols and resources for treating sexual assault survivors."

So, I filled out one of the pre-written letters on the website to the director of IHS just because it was such a simple step. After reading all of this information I wonder how I can do more. I work in the same building as the Seattle Indian Health Board and don't even know what kind of resources they provide for sexual assault. Maybe I can get involved with the issue in Seattle and get more people involved...thanks Olives for encouraging me to look up this information for your event, sorry I didn't bring it to the actual event!


Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Exotic, like sex in the Jungle.

Why is it when a woman who looks "exotic," she then has a certain level of beauty that only one of a mixed race background can achieve.

Don't play stupid, I'm not going to sit here and try to legitamize that claim. I bet you anything that when I got out to the club, if I were to tell every guy I meet that I was not only Taiwanese, but Taiwanese AND Chinese (even though they are the same race) it would give me a certain glow of sexiness. Shoot, what if I were to throw in some European ethnicity like French or Italian in there? That's exotic. Sexiness to a whole different level!

Anyway, it's pretty clear that exotic = a sexualized "beautiful." What inspired me to write this blog?

Well I stumbled upon an amazing artist by the name of Janelle Monae on someone else's blog. So I was surfing the net for information about her latest EP that came out in August and stumbled upon a very interesting review. Here is an excerpt from one.

Even before I found out anything about her, I was captivated with her exotic look, her charisma, pure star power, and energy. I thought to myself, 'this woman is just too spirited to be one of those average video girls.' A year or so later, I found about Janelle Monae and realized that she was the woman.

This Amazon customer is commenting on her appearance in the Outkast video "Morris Brown." Janelle actually does not have any vocals in the song, but has a couple of appeareances in the video (hence the this women is too spirited to be one of those average video girls, because video girls of course have no spirit.)

Anyway, so what really disturbed me was the "captivated with her exotic look." So you know what's really great? Just now, I looked up "Exotic" on to get some inspiration for this blog. (I'm supposed to be working on an application for something but I went brain dead.) but anyway... check out how defines "Exotic."

ɪgˈzɒtɪk/ –adjective
1. of foreign origin or character; not native; introduced from abroad, but not fully naturalized or acclimatized: exotic foods; exotic plants.
2. strikingly unusual or strange in effect or appearance: an exotic hairstyle.
3. of a uniquely new or experimental nature: exotic weapons.
4. of, pertaining to, or involving stripteasing: the exotic clubs where strippers are featured. –noun
5. something that is exotic: The flower show included several tropical exotics with showy blooms. exotic dancer; stripper.

I don't even need to write this freakin blog. I think that the fact that has "an exotic dancer; stripper" under the definition for exotic is enough to prove my point.

Janelle you Badddd.

Sunday, May 4, 2008

Oh damn!

Just had to share:

So, I am a member of this website called Shelfari where you can post the books you've read or want to read and share them with other people, get reccommendations, etc. One part of the site is to read and write reviews of the books on your "shelf" and I got an email with the tag line "see what other people are saying about the books on your shelf!" and just in passing I saw that a person had written this yesterday about "To Kill a Mockingbird":

quoth says
Agree with almost every word of most of your post, indrani. Except this part: "Gives you a picture of the real America (I have never been there)". The book depicts a very prejudiced period of America. Very true and realistic given the time period and setting. Thank God, however, most areas of our country has "grown up" since then. We've got much more growing to do , of course. But it is a "period piece", keep in mind. :)

Is this person for real? Yes, thank God we are out of the prejudiced period of America! I would have hated to live at a time when people were discriminated against based on race, class, gender, ability, or any of those things. We are so lucky! And what's with the fuckin smiley face? As in, here's my last condescending sentence where I talk down to you like a child and spray bullshit about grown-up america that is so distant from the terrible (almost unimaginable, since they happened so long ago) things depicted in "To Kill a Mockingbird," and I'm going to tack a smiley face on the end of it just to really bring home the greasy idiocy of my opinions.

Hell no!


Friday, May 2, 2008

the shit-head, my lab partner, and other white men

Marching behind this big huge globe today with thousands of other people was definitely the highlight of my day. Obviously any crowd that big is full of energy, but it was the speeches beforehand that really struck me. The best was the archibishop from Seattle, here's his quote from the Seattle PI:
"Seattle Catholic Archbishop Alex Brunett, addressing demonstrators before the march at Judkins Park, said his church "respects the law" but "cannot ignore the human needs of immigrant workers and their families when the law fails to protect their basic human rights.""
He also talked about how every person is welcome at any Catholic institution and that no one needs documents in a Catholic school, hospital, or any other Catholic social service. What. A. Badass.
Being Catholic, you don't get tons of opportunities to be freakin' proud and happy about stuff like this. I won't go on about this topic just incase Olives doesn't want me to de-secularize the nature of our blog.
Of course, whenever you hit the high of thousands of people claiming their freedom and humanity there has to be the obligatory ignorant shit-head who brings you back down a little. I had to leave the march early with a few friends and we walked back through the traffic-jammed streets. One of my friends still held her Mexican flag up proudly. We were still super pumped, talking about the awesomeness of the march when aforementioned shit-head leans out of his car window and actually yells "Go back to where you came from!" (that statement is, like, really out of fashion now isn't it? someone should tell him about all the new, more fashionable racist one-liners)
Now, being me, I couldn't keep myself from giving him the finger and telling him that he needed to take his ass back wherever the hell he came from because my ancestors are fucking from here. Last time I checked the only legal documents his ancestors came with were a bunch of guns and poisonous diseases. Anyway, I wasn't really too mad about it all seeing as thousands of people were triumphantly taking the streets and keeping his ignorant self stuck in the biggest traffic jam of his life. Because, if it had been a contest, we won.
In other news, my lab partner definitely thinks I'm whacked. Just because I seem to always misunderstand how every single measuring instrument works and because I thought it was super mind-blowing and awesome that my astronomy professor has looked back to almost the beginning of time. (It is awesome by the way, because the way light years work means that whenever you look at things in space, because of the time it takes light to travel that far you are seeing them as they were in the past which means the oldest things we can see are just not that long after the big bang. Tell me how that isn't something you would get excited about?). Anyway, he secretly loves being my lab partner.
Seeing as I added "and other white men" to the title I guess I should include some:
Here's a shout out to you Vanilla Ice, Chevy Chase, guy who I don't know who always says hi to me, Elvis, Stephen Hawking, Dad, and Tony Blair.
Ok, shit, I really need to study.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Hip-hop: Beyond Beats and Rhymes

Etheline and myself were up late painting last night. Luckily I'm on duty this Friday night which means I get to pull together the Friday night program. So I was using my genuis artistic skills to paint a vibrant poster that would convince residents that their friday night would be well-spent in the halls with me, versus getting drunk at a house down the block...

and Etheline was trying to make brown with our six primary colored paints we had. (she's really into trees) What we ended up with was four bowls of some purple-ish/ grey-ish color. I thought it was quite the color though.

Since I highly doubt any of my lovely residents would be willing to sacrifice their friday night with their favorite resident assistance, I thought here would be a great place to advertise for my program =).

Xavier Friday Night Programs presents a screening of:

"Hip-hop: Beyond Beats & Rhymes"
Friday May 2nd 8:30 PM

Hip-hop is a man's game... but does it have to be?
"Beyond Beats & Rhymes" takes an in-depth look at masculinity and manhood in rap and hip-hop, where creative genius collides with misogyny, violence and homophobia, exposing the complex intersections of culture and commerce.
Join Xavier residents in the screening of this documentary followed by a brief dialogue afterwards where residents can share their own experiences and perspectives on hip-hop.

What?! Shocking I know! Misogyny??! Violence?!? Homophobia??! How could hip-hop have any relevance to all these larger societal oppressors?!?! I mean Lil Wayne? Souljah Boy? Eminem? no wayyy......Snoop Dog?? Snoop Dog has been helping children.. right? Here, I'll even show a picture of Snoop Dog in his finest.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to hate on hip-hop, nor do I mean to "villafy" these talented artists. I actually admire hip-hop, although differently than a hip-hop head may. Some of my favorite artists and musicians happen to be hip-hop artists, for example Lupe Fiasco (whom I happen to be in love with), Common (whom I quote often: "when we lessen our women our conditions seem to worsen"), blue scholars, Macklemore's alright... Hip-hop has done amazing things, there's just something transformative about hip-hop. Something about the ways in which it can cross cultural boundaries and bring together those that would normally choose not to engage in one other. Or perhaps, that would be my own biased assumption..

Okay lets start with Lil Wayne. I actually was okay with Lil wayne when I first heard him in Duffle Bag Boy (What?? Duffle Bag Boy?? that's like, so recent, Lil Wayne goes WAY BACK. Yeah, well I already mentioned that I'm not a freakin hip-hop head, so stop judging me on the basis of one.) Anyway, sorry it just seems like whenever I show the slightest interest in hip-hop that is not mainstream, I feel like hip-hop heads around me are just glaring through me as if I was some sort of poser. It's as if hip-hop heads are protective about who loves their music. It's music, no one owns it. For example, I was at the bar at the Cunninlynguists show and a male asked me what I was doing there. "Why are you here? You don't listen to Cunninlynguists." What the hell? Girls can't listen to some good hip-hop like Cunninlynguists? Actually I sort of understand now why any man would assume that females would not be interested in Cunninlynguists, they are closely affiliated with Tonedeff (.. at a previous show Tonedeff pointed to me and some girls around us during his performance and alluded to something about a threesome. What surprise huh? a man making sexual references to a group of females without these females doing the slightest thing that would even hint at something suggestive like a three some, but what's new? I was at a party once my freshman year, and this is freshman year when I took my first sip of alcohol. A guy told me him and his girl wanted to have a threesome and if I was interested. First of all I highly doubt it was him AND his girl that wanted it, why didn't the girl come ask me, obviously it was his idea. Pervert.) also, Cunninlynguists and PackFM are affiliated with one another as well. If you are unfamiliar with Pack FM's work let me give you a preview:

Now here's a story 'bout a girl that I'm sure you all know
She turns around when they yell (Ho-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
You always see her at the shows, Gucci glasses on her nose
Too much make up on her face or hardly wearin any clothes
She ain't interested in flows, and she knows it's a fact
She's always early but ain't trynna see the openin' act
She wants the dough she could stackShe startin' local wit rap
She in the front row but really trynna go to the back
Oh, excuse me, let me introduce you to the groupie
Flash the car keys and the sharpie, you can autograph the coochie
Now ask yourself, "How many stars can one chick date?"
Her little black book resembles Kay Slay mixtapes
She got 2 Source covers, 4 Grammy nominees
A hot 16 in the cypher'll prolly have her on her knees
But she'll have you beggin' please, cuz she's always on her toesAnd there's a simple way to call her, let me tell you how it goes...

Hi-dee-hi-dee-hi-dee-hi (Hi-dee-hi-dee-hi-dee-hi)
(She's a...) Ho-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh (Ho-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
(She's in...) Hee-dee-hee-dee-hee-dee-hee (Hee-dee-hee-dee-hee-dee-hee)
(Now if you know her say...) Ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay (Ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay)
Hi-dee-hi-dee-hi-dee-hi (Hi-dee-hi-dee-hi-dee-hi)
(She's a...) Ho-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh (Ho-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
(She's in...)Hee-dee-hee-dee-hee-dee-hee (Hee-dee-hee-dee-hee-dee-hee)
(Now if you know her say...)
Whoa-oh-oh (Whoa-oh-oh)V
:Now when you see her at a show
You wanna get this girl to blow
Just tell her you could flow
You don't really have to prove it
She don't listen to the music
The truth is she kinda stupid
Don't get gassed if she hollas
Cuz she's all about the dollars
But I tell you this, she swallows

He actually decided to perform this song at the Cunninlynguists show, which I found particularly intersting because this song is not one of his most popular songs. It's not on any of his myspaces, I can't find it on imeem or youtube, I feel like he's aware that it's a shitty ass song but yet he felt the need to tell us this story about Suzy live, at his show, where I, a woman, could've been a Suzy. I really could have, I have Docle & Gabbanna glasses, and I wear make up, I wasn't dressed half naked, but I have before. But anyway, I'm not going to dedicate this blog to PackFM, not quite. I need more time to write a blog dedicated to him, and I work in about 10 Minutes. This blog was supposed to be about Lil Wayne. I guess we'll just to wait on that. Have you heard his club hit "pop bottles?" If not, here is a preview.
I love how Lil' Wayne's verse just fits so well with the topic of the song. But of course the ways in which we rate a quality of the song is probably not in the cohesive-ness of the content of the lyrics.. which makes it perfectly okay for Lil' Wayne to throw in a "shut up bitch swallow" here and "shut up bitch gargle" there....

I should head out to work, but I do want to dedicate a blog to Lil' Wayne, and more specifically why it's important to acknowledge that there is a difference between mainstream hip-hop and just hip-hop. There are a lot of hip-hop artists that use misogynistic undertones, I'm sure, but why does Lil' Wayne stand out to me? Because everyone loves Lil' Wayne. TRL, MTV, the clubs.. they all play Lil' Wayne. He's POPULAR. so yes, it bothers me that an artist is deemed popular when he says stuff like "shut up bitch swallow, and if you can't swallow, shut up bitch gargle." But ofcourse it's Hip-hop, so it matches well with his "image." Can you imagine Jack Johnson saying that...? Think about it, at the club, you see Jack Johnson bust out on his guitar to the tune of Banana Pancakes "can't you see it's just raining? if you can't then well, shut up bitch. Can you please swallow, and if you can't well then gargle" Of course, Jack Johnson is white, that would be too much of a paradigm shift for this society to handle. Perhaps I shouldn't have racialized that, because we all know what Eminem likes to say in his songs..

"Now I don't wanna hit no women when this chick's got it coming
Someone better get this bitch before she gets kicked in the stomach
And she's pregnant, but she's egging me on, begging me to throw her
Off the steps on this porch, my only weapon is force"

but Eminem is a rapper, so this sort of language fits well with the "nature" of hip-hop. They "jive" well together. anyway, so then why did I have to racialize lil' wayne and Jack Johnson? Whether or not we choose to see it or not, mainstream hip-hop is racialized. We would rather see the "minorities" of this country take part in misogynistic lanugage, and homophobic tendencies rather than perfect white people.
Just imagine if everyone in Nelly's video "tip Drill" was white. Only minorities can pull off the graphic sexual images and intense degradation of their women with out being labeled as "porn." And Tip Drill is a club hit as well.

okay I'm really late to work. But come out to my program if you're in the area! I promise to be open minded, well I'll try my best. But the awesome Know choice and Akrish might be facilitating the dialogue, and they are a lot more open-minded than I am,
they're sexist though. jk.

Positivity is important. Which is why I'll make one last video post that is a bit more uplifting.

let us close with the wise words of Ms. Inga Muscio (actually Etheline found this quote..)

"The only Bush you can trust is your own Bush."

That's right ladies, hopefully your bush is still there.


Christo couldn't wrap all the funky fun in our blog!

These are some art installations by Christo. Basically he and his wife wrap huge things like bridges and islands and trees in fabric. It's sweet.

Anyway, first things first, my condolences to Olives for being demoted to a blog that, instead of promoting cool local artists, is 50% only promoting me. This is all very good from my end of things though, because Olives is way funnier than I am and can maintain the integrity of this blog while I laugh at her video posts.

Yes, Olives really is condescending to blog with someone who can't even make brown paint. Isn't brown the color you always accidently get when you're trying to make dark red or dark green and then you get pissed off because you were trying to paint something besides a piece of wood or a picture of me featuring my hair? I'm over it.
Well...that's it. You bad, Olives!